A Littler Blurb about Levi

Mar 4, 2021

Hello everybody I am Levi.

I'm the second cohost (cooler, smarter, faster, than Steven) and yeah, I guess now I’ll do a little of where I came from. I was born and raised in small town Saskatchewan; I was the middle child of 5 siblings, so my life was a little busy from day one. As a child my days mostly consisted of going to school, reading, doing housework, and playing around outside. I didn’t often go out to see my friends or anything and I now realize that the reason I didn’t was because of my rejection dysphoria.

Anyways throughout my childhood I always felt a little bit like the social outcast, like I never really fit in. I read a whole lot of fantasy books as a child to escape from my life because I was struggling with my undiagnosed ADHD. My symptoms were not readily apparent to my loved ones as I didn’t talk about my mental health and I was a high achiever throughout high school, but by my senior year of high school I was severely depressed due to my feelings of inadequacy, stupidity, and my impulsiveness got me into a few bad relationships as well as causing me to make some terrible decisions, these only served to make me more depressed, and hate myself for what I had done.

My mental health really started to decline in my first year of university, though I suffered a lot of pain in this year, I also met Steven. The week of my 19th birthday was the beginning of my alcoholism. Steven and I went on a weeklong bender to celebrate (though we hardly knew each other) and this weeklong bender turned into drinking nearly every day of our first term. My life was consumed by getting drunk and I liked it, it numbed the pain and made me not have to worry about anything going on in my brain. Daily chores were no longer a thing, dishes piled up for weeks on end, I couldn’t be bothered walking 30 steps to throw out the trash, so we had a trash closest instead.

I was obnoxious and rude, to sum it up, I was a terrible person. I was showing up to class hungover (or drunk), my grades were not good, and every time I tried to sober up and fix my life, my depression would get bad, and my ADHD would act up, so I'd drink instead. Second term was almost as bad, but I went to class sober (mostly), and Steven and I contained our drinking to only 3-4 days a week (down from 7). I found my passion in rock climbing and working out this term as well and those have both been very important in helping me have an outlet for my emotions and energy. Coming into second year I got diagnosed and I abstained from alcohol and I’ve been working on my mental health ever since. You can hear more about my mental health journey in Ep. 1. Thanks for reading.

p.s. Steven IS faster.